so many new things...

so, 2 weeks ago i started a no gluten diet, and added no alcohol, no sugar, and now no carbs. my goal is to free my energies so i can read and absorb my intuition speaking and others as well.
all of my life i have found ways to numb out because 1. i carried physical pain and couldn't deal and 2. i didn't know how to navigate all of the "psychic" input i received.
the no gluten thing has freed me up tremendously! it immediately releived MOST of the pain i have had all of my life.
this book i am reading has given me the insight and courage to face the rest.
it was so clear to me, it spoke to me and put into words what i have been sensing for awhile now.
i want to continue honing my skills.
i went to a drum circle a couple weeks back and in entered a man that immediately captured my attention. his energy was so intense. i watched him through out the night and saw him watching me. he was so intense that i was intimidated!
I WAS INTIMIDATED!!! i don't get intimidated. we met after and i had to step back because the connection was so intense. i had to struggle to find my voice and say..."hi i am danielle!"
i thought of him EVERYDAY for 2 weeks. his presence was SOOOO intense. i even told michael and a few of my friends about him.
i decided to look for him on FB, and there he was. i sent him a message and became his friend.
i just HAD to tell him that his energy captivated me and turns out he felt the same.
he said that when we met he KNEW we would meet again!
we chatted a few times and i realized that i didn't see HIM at the gathering. i saw his spirit and i saw a POWERFUL, stronger than human presence, a kind, open, watching soul who seemed to float.
in chatting with him i found out that he has a "guardian" named ralphel who is of the Shaolin people. (they are strong and walk on water)
his energy is still with me and has brought me many insights.
i am on this journey of realizing that i have a physical body that i MUST repect but i also have a spiritual body. i am intune to BOTH finally and am fine tuning having them exist in harmony. but i have realized that i am here to kindly guide people in directions they need to go but may not know it. i struggle with interpreting my spirit into human words. but i keep working on it because i feel i know things that others need to know. i can sense what is going on with people and need to use my gift to point them in the direction they need to be made aware of.
i also realize that although i know michael is very intuitive, he is not in touch with his spirit side. he keeps me grounded and i found him because he is my balance in this human form and i am supposed to have a baby boy with him.
these are just things i know!

the black panther...

i still see himon my drive to work most days....in the same spot....
a camera maybe?

it came to me last night!...

his name is MAKIAH!!!

living in the light!

...all of my life i have felt...out of my body!
i have felt like i don't belong in human form. i have been uncomfortable with my body and even allowed myself to abuse my body because i didn't appreciate the value of it. i allowed myself to BE abused as well. i allowed myself to ignore my intuition and found myself in many unfortunate circumstances.
i have felt i had different personalities inside me. i felt i would come to moments of clarity but something would take over, logic?, religion?, basically my mind...and those clear moments would disappear and i'd feel crazy. especially since i did not have people around me who experienced anything similar.
i have always heard and felt this struggle within between body and mind but didn't know how to put words to it. i have felt like it was unfortunate that i had to live in a physical form because i had sooooo much more aspiring with in me and my body wouldn't cooperate.
i have struggled with alot of PAIN, i'm sure because of this struggle within and because i didn't KNOW how to change it.
fortunately my intuition knew. even though I didn't know.
it is amazing to look back to 5 years ago and observe that my intuition took over for me when my brain had shut down. i ended up soooo depressed, and suicidal and hopeless and in pain, YET, something took over, and i took one step after another until i found HERE!
thank you "intuition"! or i would have died. =-)
one step after another until i got it right. or at least on the right path!
even when my family and friends and religion said i was/am wrong and a heathen for my choices and chose to remove themselves from my life. it's okay! they would have hindered my journey. i am not angry but relieved. at times i am grateful because my journey would have been that much more difficult having to deal with naysayers and doubters and persons who didn;t understand and support my choices.
PERHAPS, down the road i can return to them but on my terms.
i am reading this book called...living in the light, by shakti gawain.
i was giving a massage and explaining to my client where i was in my journey regarding "spirituality"? i guess is what it could be termed.
i was explaining how i have felt dark inside for a couple months and didn't exactly know why. i THOUGHT maybe it was because i have had a faith my whole life and a HOPE for the future etc. and now i did not. and i haven't been sure how to replace it. going back to the religion i came from didn't seem the answer. that would be too easy. a quick fix. it never worked before so why kid myself and think going back would be the answer. supposedly it would SAVE me but i don't want to be saved at the expense of my inner self. not anymore.
anyway, my friend said....i have a book for you! she gave me living in the light!
i am so grateful! it is EXACTLY what i need to be reading right now! it is putting words and explanations to things i have felt for a long time. it has been very validating and enlightening. CURRENTLY i am reading the difference between the body and spirit and how to have them CO EXIST!
ah, relief! i can utilize both! i feel hope.
my spirit is here for a reason, in physical form, for a reason. i need to respect that and find ways to learn and live and aspire within that. what a privilaged journey!

OMG!

i was just reading an old post on here and i realized i have had a "vision" lately!
i was sitting on the couch last night with michael and our newborn was laying between us! a newborn boy wrapped in a blankie!

my passion...

i have had this feeling lately of a fire trying to be lit...
like, i am meant to DO something big or BE something bigger than i am but i just don't know what it is.
i am hard on myself because i have pursued so many things, because i truly LOVE them but so far none of them are THE thing i should be doing. i don't want to keep pursuing insignificant things!
i feel it!
i FEEL, writing a book, designing and creating clothes, opening a raw restaurant.....mayne i am meant to be the RAW martha stewart! =-)

nothin new...

well, nothing significant has happened lately.
i HAVE felt like i am being watched! it is creeping me out!
like, i do not feel safe in my house and as i walk from my car to the front door i feel like there are eyes on my back!
this is an unusual feeling for me!