things i know...

09/30/09.....i KNOW peoples intent before it is apparant to others. i KNOW when people are suffering, or are sick physically or emotionally. i KNOW when poeple are lying. i KNOW that i was pregnant twice and miscarried within the first month of each and what the sex of the the first one was. when i met michael, i KNEW i was gonna marry him someday even though we lived 800 miles apart and i didn't see him for 1 1/2 after i met him.
these KNOWINGS are very different than just knowing something. they FEEL different and i am learninghow to decipher them.
for me these KNOWINGS come to me as fact. there is no hesitation in my consciousness. no doubt or questioning. it just is.
with other "knowings" i feel a skepticism or questioning until it is proven correct. these could be compared to "knowing" 2+2 is 4 but you still have to do the math in your head to verify it....

you are demonized!

09/30/09....i recall "knowing" things as i was growing up. as i think of examples i will post them but because of the religion i was raised in i felt i must be possessed by satan or a demon. in this religion there was no other explanation for the unknown world of psychic abilities or afterlife except for "you must have a demon"! this made me grow up REALLY doubting myself and my abilities and intuition. i began to feel like ALL of my inner voices and things i picked up on MUST have been wrong and from satan. this lead me to make many poor decisions and eventually an emotional breakdown because of ignoring myself for so long. it makes me sad to think that i had MANY people come to me with similar abilities looking for answers, (probably because they sensed it in me too) and all i knew to tell them was...pray to god and ask him to tell the demons go away! very sad!

grandma natalie

09/30/09......i started thinking about how my great grandmother natalie kept coming to my consciousness awhile back. i have never met this woman or seen a picture! however i kept seeing her clearly in my mind, and was acutely aware of her sparkling eyes that seemed to smile and that she was wearing a long skirt, a blouse, and a scarf on her head. (apparantly my great grandparents were from russia) i also was aware that she was there to encourage me. i somehow felt she was impelling me because she knew it was safe to do what i was about to do and that she wished she could have lived her dream similarly, and wanted to see me do it.
as i look back i realize she was there when i was considering coming out to new mexico to visit micheal and then moreso when i returned and had decided to move here.
her presence gave me a tangible peace and sureness in my decision.

orbs, ghosts, spirits, demons

09/30/09....so i was just reading about orbs, ghosts, spirits, demons and their differences. apparantly orbs are ghosts or energies of the dead who haven't left this realm. spirits on the other hand do leave this relam but visit off and on if the need be. demons of course are evil spirits that do what they want and influence our thoughts and actions and disturb us.

queen elizabeth!

09/01/09...i was driving last week and i felt like a vision was being infused into me...it was a very clear picture with details and names and symbolism. it was about my office manager. i quickly contacted her to tell her about it and low and behold it was an event that happened THAT morning for her. i hadn't talked to her in a week and a half. it had details of where she sat, who she was with, what the meeting was about, why her mother had named her elizabeth, and an odd detail...there was an animal head over the whole scene...turned out she was at "the owl cafe", a cafe here in town that is actually looks like an owl on the outside. (i didn't even know it existed). through symbols i had interpreted WHAT her meeting was about and also, my explanation to her actually helped her interpret some things for herself. it was all very interesting! i am enjoying honing my abilities!i am but a vessel but i have learned to share what happens incase it is for the benefit of the other.